Saturday, December 30, 2006
went raffles place to audrey's office to do wenling's card today.
its nice after all the hard work.
but its not yet done.
went to concourse searching fer items fer thanksgiving.
thers lotsa party shops there.
bought a vampire's teeth.
hahas.
after which went to zhitai's grandfather's wake.
im glad he's fine.
lalalas.
had a great time fellowshipping with them.
sighhhhhhhhhh.
i was feeling moody the whole day.
hahas.
would anyone wants to look thru the smiles?
its so hard.
;(
save me from myself!1:50 AM
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
i tell you..
im feeling super frustrated.
pek cek.
you know its so hard to care when no one cares!!
piang a.
then its like im being that extra.
now i know.
save me from myself!11:48 PM
Sunday, December 24, 2006
lulu.
i was seating near the window @subway ytd.
ahaaas. theres this little girl.
took a pic of her cause i think she is super cute!
and she came into my mind when pastor say theres goodie bag fer kids.
haiyah!
should had invited her to the xmas svc.
lalala..
there's too much "i should had do this"
or "i should had done that"
MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!
whole hall was filled with light.
svc was great today. esp when we light our candles.
went supper with little esther just now.
met a guy from my primary sch.
HE USED TO PULL MY PONYTAIL!!!
and its the reason why i cut my hair short.
thanks those stupid childish guys.
stupid.
ahaaa. invited him fer svc tmr but
he say he's sick of gg to church.
ahaaaaa. his name is JOHN.
i rmb calling him SI john john.
after eating is like waited fer 20 mins fer bus with esther.
then realised there's no more bus.
im a blessed girl man.
got these 3 quite handsome guys abt 16 or 17?
they waited quite long fer the bus then they taking cab.
esther help me ask them where they gg.
thought if we share cab i'll save some $$$.
but they gg simei so its like diff direction.
BUT they agreed to let me get hop in lors.
so i decided to pay them few bucks?
but they dont want. they say theyre nice ppl.
hahhahahhahahhahahaaaa.
yay! saved abt 7 bucks.
then the handsome guy still ask me to be careful.
awwwwwwwwwwwwww.
didnt even ask their names.
so wasted. who knows if i brought them to church,
one of them might be my future husband.
ahahaaaaaaaaaaas.
so i realised the world isnt that dark as it seemed.
there're nice people around too.
cause Jesus had given light to my path.
so there will be light where ever i go.
im light that shines.
im salt that adds flavour.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
save me from myself!3:16 AM
Friday, December 22, 2006
mum's nagging nag nag upon me the entire day.
cant take it. lalala.
she always say she nv work i still dont want accompany her go shopping.
hais. nag.
went shoppingwith her instead of doing st survey.
bought a dress @ taka,
i dont dare to take a look at my tummy!!
it scares me.
i got a revalation from God that,
i should slim down. hahahhahahaa.
nuts lar.
my evil smile.
save me from myself!4:33 AM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
mum bless me 50bucks (dad's money though)
went to get my pay today,
quite sad. its not really much.
saw pri sch fwen, yining.
she's just working at the bk below my work plc.
now then i know.
took a pic with her,
i think my face is getting rounder!
oh my! cries!
went shopping today,
bought some gifts from action city.
bought a massage thingy fer my mum.
hais...
spend quite alot today.
lulu.
tmr gg be street evangelist @ orchard tmr.
do survey?
lululala.
i gg to get the shoe i saw today tmr.
quite ex near $70?
dunno lehh.
i really like it leh.
i must get it since i got the taka voucher.
i shouldnt zi lian,
but i did. ;(
When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused
When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do
Is think of you
I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you..."
by tata young, i think of you.
save me from myself!2:55 AM
Monday, December 18, 2006
lululalalolo....
okay i really decided to be haapy.
[like as if i can choose]
just stop thinking abt things.
think think think,
i also wont get anything.
anyway,
im happy now.
cause im not thinking. =DDD
not thinking abt sad stuffs.
deb,karrie,me,marlyn.
this is like constipating ar.
smiles. =DDDD
=D
save me from myself!2:23 PM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
my fever had gone down.
at last.
i just woke up.
what is it all about.
that feeling you gave.
its weired but im confused.
with you..
i dont have to prove myself to anyone.
i dont care how others think about me.
i dont care.
i dont care what theyre saying.
i dont care what theyre thinking.
im not afraid of the stares.
im okay with who i am.
and i can walk straight and look straight into their eyes.
im not afraid.
..
im just nobody but me..
save me from myself!2:58 AM
Friday, December 15, 2006
i always tell myself i must not cry fer litte stuff.
but im just so STUPID. so STUPID.
always telling myself i must be strong and independent.
but it seems.
im getting weaker.
my heart is weak.
stupidity kills me once again.
i need,
someone to share my ups and downs with.
i hate the feeling..
of walking this stupid road alone.
and i struggle hard not to fall.
cause there isnt someone that will catch me when i fall.
i must be independent.
cant always complain this and that.
now i dont even feel like complaining to my mum like i always do.
hais.
i feel heavy.
i feel old.
like as if im carrying the weight of the world on my shoulder.
all alone.
doubt anyone will understand.
doubt anyone will understand.
i try to smile all the time.
but pls pardon me when i cant even fake a smile.
save me from myself!1:34 AM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
die la.
i cant sleep.
how.........
not sleeping then here blaberling.
hais.
later still got work lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
anyway phua ask me whether i bought my books alr just.
then i say haven lor.
yep. then meeting him at 8.30 later fer breadfast
then go buy books.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i cant sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
killing me big big time.
save me from myself!6:05 AM
just came home.
today was quite fun lah.
im learning lotsa things in a sense.
hahhaha.. i went into the kitchen and help to cut red dates just now. fun.
i rather find smth to do then to do nth lor.
so boring lor. standing in the hall and do nth.
then the korean chief very nice i think.
he asked wads my name. he's nice nice.
i rather work in the kitchen leh. like so fun.
friday cant go cg. gg make up on sat
friday got 100 reservations you know.
sigh...
mum asked whats wrong with me. she say i got dark eye rings.
eh i think i look like shit can.
hais.
sighsighsigh.
i hate that feeling. (im having it right now)
i need to get my feelings out.
frustrated.
i realise not long ago.
that assumption is very stupiest and dangerous thing.
because it makes you see things
YOUR own way and lead to prejudice.
please see all the fact.
you're making your two cents worth people's burden.
dont make assumption if you dont have all the data.
you always alwalys end up hurting people.
and im tired to be always the one who say "whats wrong",
(just because it seems that you need to hear those words. )
dont be so self centered can.
im tired.
i got my feelings too alrights.
dont accuse me because of things that you wont understand.
its killing me.
what will you do.
when everyone around you is pushing you to the limits,
will you die?
im tired.
will i sleep and never wake up?
save me from myself!12:09 AM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
haishais.
yeas. im back. back back back. got back my lappy.
yupppppppppp.
so far. no good.
bad bad bad. no good.
think life's full of ups and downs.
but i can feel God's presense with me. i know he's with me.
hais hais.
anyway i decided to stop complaining abt my life. stop the whines.
just taking thing as it is lors.
i'll do my best fer things that i could. those that i cant, just leave it lors.
hais.
and time is precious now.
im working. learning guitar. catching up with my studies. and chasing after God now.
learning to keep my cool even when situations seems chaotic..
lalala.
and im learning to appreciate people around!
heee.
tuition just now with zhenghao was quite fruitful. hahhaha.. thanks zheng hao. =D
maybe someone vomitting blood secretly lar. i dont know. lalalaaaa..
celebrated ZHI TAI's birthday today!!!
heeeee. someone said no posting of pictures to the blog!
nono. boooooooooooo. =DD
hahahaha. we love you we love you. we love to sabo yoooooooooooo. =D
oh ya. thank lennard and jeffrey fer the 1 gb mmc.
thanks fer the surprise, guys. =D
ohhso! thank ce chao fer making the effort to drop a postcard fer me.
received 4 or 5 alr. xie xie ni fer making me feel loved. =D
i smile i smile i smile smile smile.
cause theres no point to cry cry cry and whine whine whine. =D
save me from myself!3:00 AM
NAME: 陈美婷, FAITH(AKA JASMINE)
lulu.
