i always tell myself i must not cry fer litte stuff.
but im just so STUPID. so STUPID.
always telling myself i must be strong and independent.
but it seems.
im getting weaker.
my heart is weak.
stupidity kills me once again.
i need,
someone to share my ups and downs with.
i hate the feeling..
of walking this stupid road alone.
and i struggle hard not to fall.
cause there isnt someone that will catch me when i fall.
i must be independent.
cant always complain this and that.
now i dont even feel like complaining to my mum like i always do.
hais.
i feel heavy.
i feel old.
like as if im carrying the weight of the world on my shoulder.
all alone.
doubt anyone will understand.
doubt anyone will understand.
i try to smile all the time.
but pls pardon me when i cant even fake a smile.