Friday, June 29, 2007
what happens when only you differ,
swallow sweet, pain and all life’s bitter.
screwing up is sick.
took cab to and fro school.
it sucks when you cant walk very fast.
i swear school sucks,
esp when you gotta do stupid things like chinese letter writting.
the teachers were asking about my foot,
during math bernard low was trying to be funny and said,
you fell into the drain??? you chase after boys???
i was like, whatever luh.
starring into space,
i seriously felt like i dont belong here.
what happens when only you think so,
while others deny it, could they no more?
save me from myself!12:30 AM
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Oh. its pretty sad,
im going mad.
save me from myself!12:22 AM
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
went berserk last night and kicked everything around.
you wont imagine how agitated i was.
anyway, dont wanna elaborate so much on what happened.
pwwww. hurts so much.
went doctor with qiuxian in the noon.
and i threw 20 bucks away for that.
oh whatever.
save me from myself!7:15 PM
Monday, June 25, 2007
scattered thoughts everywhere.
didnt went for school today, say im lazy,whatever.
things went really wrong last night.
i just burst everything out of a sudden and mum was kind of shocked.
im getting way too emotional, whatever luh whatever.
i sobbed like mad last night,
screamed every single thing out,
im pretty sure nobody feels good abt the entire thing,
and its childish for me to cry abt it, but
suck luh, i couldnt take it any longer.
this moment,
i dont really care what to do with my life.
life's too unfair.
save me from myself!11:56 PM
Sunday, June 24, 2007
still remember sec one days..
how i wish my rod day faster come.
remember mr sim kim seng..
oh my,
that period of time, my greatest nightmare luh.
the endless scoldings, the throwing of conductor stands,
music scores flying over the room,
the hundred and thousands of pumping, whatever and whatever,
the days when i went back home crying after every band practice.
i quited band, mr sim went, mr ching came, i went back into band.
was in trombone, then trumpet, and then a tuba section leader, treasurer.
the band politics, the disagreements, arguements, whatever. whatever.
our band motto: WE ARE FAMILY.
HAHs. the nice times, suckiest times, lots of memories there.
four years passed oready aye..
took fr SUE bloggie:
Today I went back to Bedok Town for the Band ROD Party.
Woah, time flies soooooo FAST okay! It seems like only yesterday i step down from band.
Now, its Jasmine's turn...
They were playing 'Balloon Game' when i came in.
Whahaa! Jasmine emerged as the WINNER.
"The winner is a girl who just had a haircut." LMAO!
Aiseyy, Jasmine. Honoured ehy? Ahaks! Give that BM one face ah! -_-"
Oh yes, I became Jas's private malay tutor just now.
This is what i taught her;"Banyak kau punya baik""Bawah blok""Ahhh, iyelah tuu"
Look at my amazing teaching skills - 'Ahhh, iyelah tu' + 'Banyak kau punya baik' = "Ahhh, iyelah tu. Banyak kau punya baik"AH HAH!
How was it? Excellent ehy?
*All hail Sue!*I was laughing my ass off whenever Jas said "Punya".
funny okay! I laughed till got tears.
LOL! Ehy, lass!
Dont you go around saying out the word that you asked me okay!
Whahaha!
Now that you know what that word that you thought you made up means PLEASE keep that word to yourself. Hehehe!
my dearest sunarti is so cute luh,
was crapping with her and then she teared yknow.
celebrated mum's birthday today,
was an early celerbration cause elder bro gotta go back to his pinoland.
hols over, gg back school tomorrow.
sian larr.
july is coming, and i cant really be borthered.
save me from myself!5:46 PM
Friday, June 22, 2007
had a fun day together with qiuxian, hwaguo, gladys and audrey at marina square.
ohlala.
yeah, and its gladys bithday today.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLADYS!
and tmr is the day i have been waiting for!
its ROD day luh!!!
finally im graduating from band!!!
save me from myself!1:10 AM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
im dead beat.
went to school in the morning for band meeting.
didnt see any tubist luh. :(
went to beach road with the other sec 4s searching for some sargent badge for whatever reason,
then bugis junction searching for sir's present,
bought a tie and a card for him. fun leh.
then left the rest and went to meet my mum at orchard.
bought some stuffs and had great meal at taka.
bought a pair of everlast shoe at tangs.
yupps.
tmr's gonna be a busyee day.
save me from myself!11:24 PM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
weird weird stuffs happening.
last night was weird, and another today.
cant stand it luh,
and sue says im experiencing dejavu.
ahaks. kind off.
so much examples right infront of me right now,
what goes around comes around.
oh whatever.
hohoho. kind off high now. HAPPY!
oh God cant believe this type of ppl still exist.
cant believe im still alive in this horible world luh.
save me from myself!11:22 PM
if sorries could mend and bring me back to the start,
i swear i'll take a diff path.
rather be a nerd,
get myself into books than to get involved with this.
its tiring.
save me from myself!4:38 AM
my eyes fully recovered oready! woots!
but then.. sigh.
realise i didnt enjoy much this holiday,
firstly was fever, then eyes infection, and finally, holidays over.
so happy, today went out with qiuxian,
went bugis together shop for B**. hahas.
we end up going in and out of the fitting room, for 2 hours or so leh.
legs damn pain lah,
cause ytd went out with pris, shopped from bugis to chinatown lah.
so fun leh. but legs are crying.
spend about 100 bucks already.
and thats abt it.
my bed is missing me already,
good night my bloggy!
save me from myself!12:55 AM
Friday, June 15, 2007
oh my.
well,
i'm utterly disgusted.
suddenly someone just told me this and that.
this is darn sickening and i rather not know.
how amazing could that be.
how did i got invovled with all this,
and oh, end up like a fool.
oh pretty good liar for you.
if i could just go to a faraway place..
& end it all.
i would, pretty soon.
save me from myself!8:07 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
thanks audrey and kok koon for visiting and praying for me.
also for the big lolli.
so touched lah.
sorry for being like..
but i really appreciates the kind acts. :D
Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you,
the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you,
the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you,
the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time
save me from myself!10:40 PM
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
priscilla called and im still on line with her.. we talked alot.
talked abt some retarded stuffs.
angry!
we realise that many ppl are like..
guess they just dont know how to be true to themselves and they often end up hurting not only themselves but also the ones around.
that sickening lah.
im not very pleased.
sometimes..
when you're doing this and that,
well maybe you dont realise you're actually playing with someone else's feelings.
you mess up things..
until it came to a point..
you became a sucker yknow, and its not nice.
and i shall stop.
i think i suck at expressing myself. :(
those red and swollen eyes are scary!
save me from myself!12:38 AM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
im bored and i can do nothing.
im not even supposed to switch on my laptop,
all i could to is to flood my eyes with the eyedrops.
you kill me alrights, my eye is getting worst.
i cant even open my eyes this morning.
sore and swollen eyes.
its super yucky,
i dont even dare to look at it in the mirror.
:(
save me from myself!3:51 PM
Monday, June 11, 2007
im really happy yknow. :(
my hair is bullying me,
yes i love mushroom but not carrying a mushroom around on my head yknow.
and now my eyes are bullying me too.
im really afraid if theres something wrong with my eyes yknow
i woke up having lots of yucky yeasts on my eyes.
my eyelids are kind of swollen since ytd.
and late afternoon i was at home watching some hk drama on channel255
and its so sad and i cried and theres this super sharp pain on the eyelids. no joke.
dont know if its some allergy or whatever thing.
maybe i should go doctor tmr.
its killing me. X(
this series of unhappy events, maybe this haircut brought me bad luck. LOL.
save me from myself!11:27 PM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
and I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you.
honestly, im not feeling good.
was chatting with my mum in the middle of the night.
i seriously want to cry.
really really wanna cry.
just wanna cry can.
i didnt sleep the whole night.
and my eyes are now swollen.
i feel like a little girl,
trying to conquer the whole wide world.
save me from myself!7:20 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
im sicked for days.
theres one night i felt like i went to antartica. my body was feeling so so cold.
the other nights its as thou the day in sahara desert. was burning hot.
ytd didnt have the strength to get off bed at all.
but now im alright alr.
weeeeee.
you got your choice.
ive got mine.
save me from myself!5:57 PM
NAME: 陈美婷, FAITH(AKA JASMINE)
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