count the blessings.

sigh, therefore, pay first. :(

珍惜你现在的一切。
grandma's admitted to alexandra hospital.

inside ward 5 lies all the grandma's, one of them was my grandma.

i saw one ah ma opposite my grandma murmuring, her hands reaching out for the table, i thought she wanted to drink water or somthing so i went to help her push the table that she could reach, then she wasnt asking for water, she was speaking in hokkien which i dont understand,

my elder brother came and tried to help, she say the ah ma was asking for red flowers?

the nurse came saying that the ah ma is senile, talking to herself.

its sad.

then there was another ah ma, she told my 2nd brother that she wants to get off the bed,

she want to sit on the chair, then my brother asked for the nurse,

the nurse said she cannot come out, then the ah ma very funny say she want to drink water, then my brother feed her with water, very funny luh cause the ah ma keep on want to get off the bed, then he persuade her by telling her in hokkien that only when she get well already then can get off. we were all laughing, but its kind of sad.
my grandma's very weak now, she dont even have strength to talk.
she's 92 years old already.
memories of me and grandma was only when i was young, i remember she stayed at my house for a period of time to take care of me before we got a maid cause my parents were both working, i remember her bathing me when i was a naughty kid, i remember her mole near her mouth which i play with and getting scolded.

im not very close to grandma due to the fact that i cant really speak cantonese.
all i know is that, my grandma is different from any other grandma.
I LOVE GRANDMA.

to cherish all that you have and all that you are.

好累,但不能这么就倒下.

ive made up my mind, not to give up.

and im gonna make my stand firm, struggle my way thru.

woke up late today and the first thing that i thought of was,

sian luh, today got amath and a amath remedial, i felt very reluctant to go school.

but afterall i forced myself to get off bed and took cab to school and i wasnt late. hah.

okay and im glad that i actually overcomed my laziness.

so happy, today didnt have amath remedial.

bernard that creature is in good mood and he did some pep talking with us.

"your success is always determined by your peers" he said.

well well, he did makes sense.

yknow i love laughing. HAHA.

laughing is fun, laughing allows me to take a break from those heartache.

school was pretty fine today, we had our class photo taken.

its totally nonsense, 4A1 is going almost mad, everybody in class was like totally out of our mind. we did lotsa crazy stuffs and we laughed like nobody business.

and amazingly emo mdm kaltom is loving our nonsense.

and eugene quek, thanks for your amath textbook.

4A1 started planning about class chalet after our N's,

and prelims is like next week? hahahaaa.

elder brother came to pick me after school and we went to east coast lagoon for lunch. its quite desserted but the food there was not bad. we saw female actress ou xuan, she looked different from tv.

evening time bro and his gf cooked curry chicken while i was having my nap.

the supposingly curry tasted like lontong. hah. theyre so funny.

oh thank God for this lala day.

DIE HARD is a pretty nice show to watch,
went movie with chrissy as to celebrate my bday.

we're both july babies! chrissy is 2 days older than me.
its been 4 years,
we've been thru all,
and im glad we still stay as good friends afterall.
i treasure this friendship.

with my ladies.



my glutton look.
my enormous piggy!

from someone.
i wanna share but they dont want. :(

070707! its two days to my birthday, wanna thank e371 who celerbrated it today!

maybe when people cant change certain situations,

situations changes people.

gosh, i need GOD.

and i guess she was indirectly telling me in class that if we're really so stress because of one subject, everytime rushing for deadlines, and because of that affect the other subjects, best way is to drop it, she was like, got one math enough alr why so greedy want 2 math.
i got no idea luh.
now the number of people who dropped amath increased and left about only 10 people or so.
oh GOD.

so should i give it up or struggle thru?

running away

i wasn't even running away

just catching my breath

screwed up mind,

you wished you'd never got up.

went zhy's house at yew tee this morning.

its been long since i touched a guitar,

zhy's father taught me guitar, its great, we played some easy old songs.

too bad i didnt stay for long, was rushing back home,

took cab and it went like, 35 bucks?

brother waited for the cab to come and pass me the money.

had my dinner at some cheena restaurant and send my brother off.

the other days was spent with zhy pris and clar.

went out with zhy's dad and his daughters ytd,

zhy's dad was like, asking me to eat all the time.

he told me he likes to talk to me and maybe is "you yuan" lol.

shy luh, he said im prettyee. HAHs. i believe.

priscilla is dumb, always disturb me.

and her chinese name is called mei zhu!

disturb me somemore ah.

we should had pictures taken in the kitchen that night luh.

HAHAH.

unthinkable surprises,

its kinda weird i recieved a sms fr a unknown number in the afternoon,

then i got to know who the person was,

its really really really weird.

its someone who i never spoke to before in school?

i was like, huh, okay.

and we talked a little on the phone.

its really weird luh.

kill me cause i cant sleep.

oh mama, i saw a mushroom!

wouldnt you give me some sweets?give me my candies....

dont make me cry!