Friday, August 31, 2007
Having headache right now.
Teacher's day celebration was fun, my laughter's can make you deaf.
We were sitting together chattering,
then Rachel says it seems like i'm always laughing, as though i've never been sad.
Not true ley.
Its the first time for many of us in the four years that's actually celebrating Teacher's day with our form teacher. We ordered 4 boxes of pizzas and bought a cake.
Then yesterday i actually came out with this "fighting" idea to surprise Mdm kaltom.
We succeeded so, she was shocked and then touched i guess,
and everyone was like couldn't stop laughing. haha.
Happy Teacher's Day. :)
Was happy until...
I begin to question myself, why is it that time after time im being questioned like a criminal?
It made me so frustrated until cant take it any further.
Adding up, this series of events made me wanna burst.
Soon its leading to an eventual emotional breakdown.
No, im still alive anyway.
& i hate all this emo shit of mine,
for a min i was so happily laughing, yet the next min,
i was crying like an idiot.
And again,
the word is STRESSED.
save me from myself!2:19 PM
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Thanks,
it helps.
:)
.
.
.
I feel SO stressed.
NO breakdowns, i hope.
Encouragements are welcomed.
& because i dont want to hear those nonsense.
If it's negative comments and suggestions to bring me down,
yes, you will kindly keep it to yourselves.
:)
Things will be right eventually, i hope.
save me from myself!8:03 PM
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Last night.
Mum and Winnie aunty.
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Went back school today.
Prelim result was such a disappointment. :(
save me from myself!6:26 PM
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Well,
I had a terrible night last night, didnt really sleep at all,
My eyes really hurts and some sticky liquid kept flowing out of my eyes
throughout the whole night.
Gosh, then i realise i got problem opening my eyes when the morning call came,
its like having super glue sticked between the eyelids of mine.
For a moment i thought im going blind.
THANK GOD i didnt.
Then mum asked me to stay at home, so i went back sleep.
Woke up and felt that theres a need to go doctor.
HG's working.
Went doctor with Alex instead, thanks bro!
wearing shades that made me looked like a cyclop,
went into the room, removed my shades,
and i think i looked kinda horrible,
the doctor gave me 2 days MC, box of eyedrop.
Then went library to return books, also to borrow,
3 books caught my eye, and then yes, they went home with me.
Samy sent me home, thanks yeah.
FRIENDS.
Many thoughts came into my mind when i found a box containing some neoprints i took
years ago.
I think it's rather a rare occasion when friends actually become old friends.
Sigh.
Its really sad that what i more often see is that,
someone who was once so close right beside you,
sharing of laughter,
sharing thoughts about each others life,
could in moments,
turn away and become strangers or worst, foes.
And then they tend to go on about their lives apparently forgotten.
You know, stuffs like this, i hate.
Mum says: " Aiya, at your age, its like this."
Really meh??
Dont wanna go on any further liao.
Anyway, still fortunate and happy with the friends i have now.
save me from myself!7:37 PM
Monday, August 20, 2007
Joanne's uber cute baby nephew,
Happy 1st birthday Jayden!
See what we've got for him, and what i drew. lol. :D
I had my last paper today, listening compre & amath paper2.
Joanne invited us to her nephew's birthday party. Had much fun over there though the stay wasnt long.
Like what joyce meyer preached, I dont wanna be a yesterday person anymore.
She's right. Why do we waste today, regretting about yesterday, worrying about tomorrow?
I'll stand up and rejoice for today!
YES!
I live for today.
Today is the day!
Its quite a happy day.
Sad thing is, i look like a red eye monster since noon.
Lots of crap coming out of my eyes.
and why is that so? :(
Count down to 2 weeks!!!
save me from myself!9:06 PM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o’er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar I’ve written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know
God of my forever
And forever I’m with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King
God of my all I’ve surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
In the end just to hear You say
“Well done”Bowing before Your throne
Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way
i need all the strength i can muster for this, so i'm gonna do my best. :) it is, the start of something new. :)
save me from myself!12:17 AM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Just got back from school.
Im seriously tired of losing battle with myself. I feel tired.
Dragging myself to carry on moving, tellling myself, its one step nearer.
And when can i stop.
& What will you do if you got $100 million?
Wont even pack my bag, i'll simply buy an air ticket and leave.
Run away to somewhere really really far.
Somwhere where it snows, enjoy the warmth during summer, somewhere that no one knows my name.
Leaving all thats behind.
Its odd i get frustrated with stuffs that i used to be able to live with.
And i know, its either you learn to ignore or learn to accept.
How tough.
save me from myself!11:38 AM
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
STRESSFUL.
Feels like its taking forever.
Prelims.
I study, and study, and studied. and practice, and practice, and practiced.
YET, im confident i did crap for both papers today. physics & amath.
Ive got this very very bad feeling, a fear thats tugging.
Im afraid i cant make it.
And what am i suppose to do if i end up like, crap?
And where can i go?
And then what will my future be?
Its deppressing.
Tuition after tuitions of amath and feels like, im just not able to do it.
haiyerrrrrr.
ITS ENOUGH.
I gotta really really buck up.
For Amath,
and chem,
and physics,
and social studies,
and geog.
and in short, everything. :(
I need a miracle, a BIG one.
Labels: This fear.
save me from myself!5:40 PM
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Lord You seem so far away
A million miles or more it feels today
And though I haven't lost my faith
I must confess right now
That it's hard for me to pray
But I don't know what to say
And I don't know where to start
But as You give the grace
With all that's in my heart
Lord it's hard for me to see
All the thoughts and plans
You have for me
But I will put my trust in You
Knowing that You died to set me free
But I don't know what to say
And I don't know where to start
But as You give grace
With all that's in my heart
I will sing
I will praise
Even in my darkest hour
Through the sorrow and the pain
I will sing
I will praise
Lift my hands to honor You
Because Your Word is true
I will sing
DON MOEN
save me from myself!4:11 PM
NAME: 陈美婷, FAITH(AKA JASMINE)
