That day, we had a surprise for jimmy. :D

Been really happy recently. :DDD

This few days was spent with eileen chua, studying overnight at the airport, expo coffeebean, mp library. That girl seriously, can laugh practically about everything about me and weird things like to happen when we're out together but she's one of the those that i can feel comfortable with though. :)

Met up with ms low at s'pore post office in the noon today,

she helped me with few topics which i cannot make it de. She made me really think about that one burden im carrying all day long.
It always have been a tough decision.

Just heard from my dad that my grandma's hospitalised again.
Ive decided to go visit her tomorrow.
Told my mum about it and she ask me to visit her after exams,
Then she start...
and then we quarrelled.
But grandma's 90 plus alr..
You know...
We dont know what's gonna happen tomorrow.

& because tomorrow's not promised and all we have is now.

With gladys & the sunburned.

My 2nd Lantern's day with e371.

Great time fellowshipping. :D
Blur pictures. sigh.

Decided not to post. :(

Last night i dreamt about retarded stuffs again..
A scene whereby i sat in the exam hall, the freaking mind of mine was all blank.
Its scary can.
Sat down there crying and crying before sheets of blank papers was handed in..
eeyer. :'(


Mugging every damn thing, how is that possible.


On my way back home just now, was scrolling down my contacts.
I realised,
besides the one or two i've mugged with,
i haven got much mugging-company to mug with.
& something amazing is that,
among the 140 contacts i have, about 1/2 of which are my church friends,
other half consist like schoolmates,
primary school friends,
family & relatives etc.

Great number of them seemed to have vanished into air long long time ago.

Out of which,
thinking of the of people whom i could trust and turn to is like,
a-hand-could-count.

Really few.

Think.

Thinking.

& too much thinking brings memories which i have no desire to recall.

This temporal life, so complex for?

Feeling rather nostalgic now.. as u can tell.
Getting out of here.

Years ago,

theres this girl in the KOG, cg, services, serving those mentally challenged in jams, visitations,

having bible studies, and various church activities.

& she got baptised.

God was seemingly so close, so close to her.

Her busy school life, band life, church life, her personal life within a year,

for any reason, she lost every interest,

everything snapped.

That girl, its me with regrets that i have to confess..

I'm quite of a disappointment i know.

The choices i've made, I'm ashamed.

Well, more than anything,

I'm sorry for failing as a testimony of God.

For failing to be the person i should have been.

But yet, i'm thankful.

Despite my weakness, i know YOU're still here.

I KNOW i NEED YOU.

Yes.

Despite being utterly faithless in myself, and every other things at times.

You're more gracious towards every shortcoming.

Thank You.

& for those who were there for me & accepted me for the way i am.

while im still seeking for self-acceptance.

For all i know is that im true to myself.

& i dont fake.

& i dont need anyone to judge me for who i am and who ive been.

i’ll face myself

And let go of what I’ve done

My english paper..

Foolishly thought english would be one of my best 3 sub.

End up...

I'm dying, really.

For the entire paper i was sneezing, sniffing like crazy and i didnt got enough tissues.

Patheticly got to raise up my hand to ask a teacher for tissues.

So in the end, i got 2 pathetic pieces of tissues from my teacher and how great is that.

Hais.

At the end of the paper i felt like crying, then i thought to myself,

there isn't any point in crying, its over anyway.

& then a minute after next, yt was crying.

Everyone was complaining about how tough the paper is.

Sigh, thats it.

Its either you make or you break.

Too lazy to type other stuffs, my eyelids are heavy,

i need some sleep.

The headach is killing me. :(