Years ago,

theres this girl in the KOG, cg, services, serving those mentally challenged in jams, visitations,

having bible studies, and various church activities.

& she got baptised.

God was seemingly so close, so close to her.

Her busy school life, band life, church life, her personal life within a year,

for any reason, she lost every interest,

everything snapped.

That girl, its me with regrets that i have to confess..

I'm quite of a disappointment i know.

The choices i've made, I'm ashamed.

Well, more than anything,

I'm sorry for failing as a testimony of God.

For failing to be the person i should have been.

But yet, i'm thankful.

Despite my weakness, i know YOU're still here.

I KNOW i NEED YOU.

Yes.

Despite being utterly faithless in myself, and every other things at times.

You're more gracious towards every shortcoming.

Thank You.

& for those who were there for me & accepted me for the way i am.

while im still seeking for self-acceptance.

For all i know is that im true to myself.

& i dont fake.

& i dont need anyone to judge me for who i am and who ive been.

i’ll face myself

And let go of what I’ve done